HEYA!!!

Onigiri!!! :O :O Dude, I've always wanted to know how to make those! Are they easy to make o.o? Though, my expertise with cooking lies in making 'comforting' (for lack of a better term) and german food. I make chicken noodle from scratch, yep even broth is scratch XD, gouloush (i know how to say it.. not spell it ), bacon bread dumplings, dancing chicken, lemon meringue pie, tiki marsala, butter chicken.. and so on.. I'm kinda all over the place I guess XD

And ahhhh manga... I guess many of the new trans are coming from the influence, because manga and anime goes into some 'socially sensitive' topics that most cartoons and shows do not. There are countless gay shows/animes, with plots and abilities far past that of a normal human being. There are transgender people in it, and I found that anime is what made me realize I was bi-gender. Because watching cute little scenes with two boys, I found myself understanding the top or "seme" ( yes... that's where the name came from ) MUCH better than the bottom, or uke. I found myself attracted to the ukes, as in wanting to top them, if they were real of course XD. And I found myself not only feeling as a gay man, but starting to crave to dress like one, act like one.. and then of course, be one.

And wow... you love art don't you? O_O i wish I could make a living off of it

And I admit to being a more hardcore anime fan, but I'm not psycho about it XD or, as they call it "fangasm" over every anime thing. People like that bother me too <_< they plague the conventions I go too.

Raves are awesome >3<!!!

And your website, what exactly is a 'free-form forum RP for writers"?

And Ulfar,
what Xbox games do you like? :3

And, I'd love to hear some of your own writings, and your poetry!! I love reading it, though half the time I don't get poems, I enjoy reading them!

And don't you live in Poland, and we live in north america.... Isn't that a TAD of a distance? O.o

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I spoke with another transgendered person who was from a lolicon influence. And after that I found that there are a LOT of transgendered lolicon fans. I think a lot of the attraction is based on wanting to be a little loli or shota.
I can't relate entirely. While I think the little girl and boy characters in manga are cute, I've never been a sexual deviant for them. But to each their own.

I've always been a top, so to speak. In bed I've always been a very dominant woman, but a lot of people seem to mistake that for an overall dominating spirit. Bondage and S&M have been my scene for a long time, and I know a lot about it and how to utilize it, but really I love to be, not necessarily a bottom, but a sub.

I've always wanted to meet someone that was able to win the fight for dominance, but everyone always just gives in right away, and its very frustrating. In a social environment, I am not very dominant at all. I prefer to be the sub role in a co-op relationship (if that makes any sense at all) But in the bed, I've never met anyone who could quite understand what I need.

Sex has never been important to me, but intimacy and physical contact is a must. This involves a lot of foreplay. Wrestling around, tying each other up, rolling, joking, laughing, kissing, all of that, we have no set roles.

I hate to use the word violent to explain my sexuality, but its true in a sense. I can be very feral and primal, and I'll tell you, I'll find a million people who would just roll over and take it, and not a single one that will fight back and manage to take me over. I DREAM of someone throwing me off of them, tackling me to the ground, grabbing my wrists in his hands and just kissing me hard. NOW that's passion, boys, that's passion.

Anyway, now that I've revealed my sexual fetishes to two people that probably shouldn't have heard it, I'll move on.

Onigiri are easy to make, they just take practice and they can be very messy. You can either pack them by hand. If you do that, and you perfect it, they're the best. Or you can pack them in a mold- that's the faster way, but they're not always as tightly packed.

I recommend using a rice cooker and Japanese sweet rice, you just gotta watch that you don't use too much water. If it absorbs too much water and cooks too long, the rice will turn into mush. If it does that, my suggestion is spreading the mush out, rolling it out with a rolling pin, and letting it dry to make rice paper. Then start over with less water.

I typically just use a mold and the leftover rice. A lot of times I cook rice in the morning and leave it in the cooker all day on 'keep warm' and whenever the family wants rice, we eat it. At the end of the day I use the mold and press some basic ones, slap some soy wrappers on them (I can't stand seaweed) and wrap them up for a quick snack.

Otherwise, I'll do it by hand and plan them out. Id suggest steaming some pork or your favorite vegetables, then steam your rice. Wet your hands then coat them in sea-salt. Grab a hand-full of rice and pack it hard, molding it into the shape you want. Push a hole in it, stuff it with your fillings, then cover it up. Vioala, onigiri. It takes a lot of practice and getting the rice just right. I'd recommend starting with a cup and a half of water for each cup of rice.

It's basically a forum and each thread is like a room. You make your post for your character, like a good few paragraphs, and then wait for others in the room to post.

The thing with that is that the people there don't know I'm a tranny, they just think I'm a girl born-and-raised..which is an image I've worked hard to maintain.

Yeah, I love art.Most of my college time was spent doing art of all kinds. I need to get some good digitals of my drawings. My scanner sucks for scanning my graphite works. Otherwise I'd show you Well, I can show you a crappy scan of what I did for a friend's character. But the drawing was too big to fit on the scanner so I had to kind of piece it together.


It was a quick piece I did with a #2, cuz I can't find my art pencils. And the scan sucks.. If I can get a picture of some of the professional large scale ones I did, I'll put them up.

http://s5.photobucket.com/albums/y184/I ... u-RAVE.jpg

http://s5.photobucket.com/albums/y184/I ... C00105.jpg

(i have a coloured version of this.. but too lazy to go get it XD)


on this one.... I got lazy, and never bothered to fix it up, and clean it up a bit :X

http://i5.photobucket.com/albums/y184/I ... y_kitt.jpg

Just a few XD... I think Ulfar has seen most of them though

Except for the oil pastel birdies, it's all anime XD I'm not very good with photoshop so I don't LIKE to colour/line art mine....

And omg, I'm going to get my friend matt into this kitchen, and IT's TIME TO COOK SOME RICE BALLS BABY!!!! *dances happily* He is obsessed with them, but when he tried to make them, he had NO CLUE how to make them.. Cooked some basmati rice and started to try and press it together... needless to say it didn't work very well XD

And LOL, it's okay... I won't tell anyone about your fetishes XD

But I SO AGREE. OMG. When you said, and i quote XD, I DREAM of someone throwing me off of them, tackling me to the ground, grabbing my wrists in his hands and just kissing me hard. That's also my dream!! Except instead of to the ground, against a car, preferably in the rain, cause then everything slides around and is slippy XD My 'girlfriend', who until about a month ago, was my best friend of four years... Is what I like to call a 'feathery toucher'. AKA, they like everything slow and are the exact opposite of rough and feral, they are gentle, and for guys its like, they read a manual on what girls SHOULD like, and followed it perfectly. My old boyfriend was like that, and it got on my nerves because at the time I felt to nervous to take over and make things rough, so I sat there like T_________________T

I mean, I'm still a virgin, so I haven't exactly had any chances to be really rough, but I try to be with every chance my gf lets me have <_<

But no, I get it... The whole dominant in bed, but not in normal everyday situations. I mean personally, I'm very dominant in normal situations, I like to lead and direct people a lot. And in bed, judging by as far as I've gotten.... I seem to fluxuate a bit, but always like it rough XD... And I LOVE giving than receiving,... I think when I get the chance I'll enjoy BDSM, but obviously at 15, soon to be 16... I can't really find anyone willing, or even how to start out and go about it XD

AND... well, getting serious with her is making me start to lean more and more to a boy... Because I HATE being touched as a girl, HATE HATE HATE IT. I've stopped orgasming from down there, and HATE doing things with her as two girls, and crave doing things only the opposite sex (or two men) can do. T_T It frustrating both of us.

There, I've also divulged in embarrassing things XD

And by RP, do you mean role play? Cause that's what me and friends used to do all the time XD But, like... We made up characters and over msn we would go back and forth as the two characters, and almost wrote like a book with our two boy characters. I got a commission of them :O


AMAYA AND YOSHI, I was Yoshi, the tall black haired one.

Wow, I've put a lot of pictures on this XD
But do you mean as another character? or as yourself? O_O

:O nice picture! What type of hat is that? o_O

And god, a big thunderstorm is about to hit *looks outside* oh shit ..... WELL so much for going out and getting rice today TT_TT

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Yeah, Roleplay.

The drawing was done -of- another person's character.

I don't really have a problem with feather-touchers, but guys and girls alike seem to be naturally submissive. They're like puppy dogs, they'll bark and snarl, but as soon as you bite them on the ear (literally) they just roll over and show you their tummies. It's like, guuh where's the fun in that.

If you really try, you can learn to have sex without having sex. The whole cumming thing, to me, has very little relation to the actual intimacy of the moment. (and really, thanks to the hormones, I'm lucky if I can cum at all anyway) I just love receiving affection. I've only been in one relationship where the girl equally showed the amount of affection as I did. She would fight back a little too. Although at the time, I was fighting with myself, finding ways to prove to myself I was a man, and worked out a LOT, so she couldn't really overpower me.
Lol, here's what I looked like before I gave up(for the second time) and went back on hormones.


It's disgusting, I know.

I've lost about 20 lbs of muscle mass since then.

Your drawings are very nice. I love the style of your line-art. The thing about it is, it wouldn't look right in color anyway. I do a lot with photoshop, and it could be done nicely, but it wouldn't quite have the impact. I think it would have a much stronger swing of emotion if one of them was looking slightly up at the viewer. (sorry, art school, trained to critique)
What's really great is that the lines are alive. You haven't dulled them down by thickening them or anything. Kudos.

I do a lot in photoshop. Less now than before, but I got pretty good at one point. I did this a while ago, no pre-sketching or anything, just dove right in with my tablet.

http://fc02.deviantart.com/fs31/f/2008/232/0/4/Kali_Portrait_by_Razboinic.jpg

Idunno if I'd be able to duplicate it or not. Unfortunately, I really don't have the time to do these anymore.
I mostly do stuff like this http://fc04.deviantart.com/fs25/f/2008/068/a/7/Flower_For_My_Princess_by_Razboinic.jpg now. Its too big to put on there. It's just a photomanipulation I did.

Gotta run. Dinner time!

Oh! I missed those two links up at the top of your post. Those birds look great! I am thoroughly impressed!

Sorry for that many pics! ^^'

Oh God! I have so many things to say now, when I read your posts!

Seme, I love BDSM and, luckily, my bf too. I know what you feel. I adore to do 'this things' in a rough way! (I'm still a virgin too, but that's all about my female body >.<) But these other things you can do, so similar to sex... :>

Now, about drawings.
Cadence, you have nice style, I liked the one in pencil ^_^. Very emotional. Can you show us more of your works?
Seme, I watched your works before (on DA) and I say: draw more! *glomps*

I was trying pencils, photoshop, colouring pencils, ballpens... great thing! I love art o much and it makes my life worth living. But I know that my works are just childish and has no level needed to be a real artist.

The last ones I made for two games via www: dragons and beasts. I'm pratty proud that they (game creators) accepted it.

Well, that's all for now. I have the last exam on monday. Then I will start holidays, at least .

Oh, I forgot. Music is the other very important element in my life. I can't play any instruments, but I want to (hell yeah, I love guitars and percussion!

And, this is me on my final class high school bal (what was the word? I don't remember >.<).


And in colour:


And me when I was very tired and in evil mood XD


Woosh... I'm so UGLY x.X.

Cadence, I wish I could look like you if I were a man... It's getting stronger, this wish..

EDIT: these birds are so great!!! O.O

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Praise to my father
blessed by the water
black night dark sky
the Devil's cry

Can't do a long post AT ALL, since I have to go to my cottage is ohhh... about 5 minutes XD

Let me just say, ULFAR........ I ABSOLUTELY LOVE THE FIRST PIC..... It's dark and gloomy, and jeeze.... did you JUST do that in pencil? I have a thing for gloomy stuff like that :O

And thank you Cadence! It was for my school, last year. and FUUUUCCCCKKKKSHHIIITTTOMGOMGOMGOMFGOMFOGMFGOM *STABS SELF* omfg... I can't believe myself.. this JUST reminded me I left my graphite portrait in the school! OMG.... he probably threw it out! I worked so hard on it! It took my so long!!! D: *cries*

*sigh*.........

ANYWAYS, now that I have freaked out, man... You both look so good, trying not to use gender based words here, so I'll use both pretty and handsome So... I guess here a pic of me, not good quality... The best I could find last moment



my hairs now brown. but im normally a ginger (red hair)

That's me looking all womanly XD

ANYWAYS... ill give a MUCH bigger response when I get home on sunday :O :O

JACK.

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Hells teeth, I can't begin to understand the gender confusion going on here, but let me say with all honesty, SuperCadence is the epitomy of maculinity, and has a body most guys would die for, and you want to be a girl.

Ulfar, you are drop dead gorgeous, I'd kill for the love of a girl like you, I just can't grasp the struggle you're having with your sexuality.

Semetastic, you're pretty damned attractive too, beats me why you feel the need to be a guy when you look that good, but then I haven't been what you and the others are going through.

As for me, I know what I want from life, I know I'm not attracted to men, I love the feminine form, but I've long had the desire to know a penis other than mine. I was always attracted to larger women, of Amazonian proportions, and many years ago I found myself attracted to a woman who turned out to be a transsexual. The cock curiosity has grown and is one of the reasons for the breakdown in my marriage, anyway I've come to the conclusion that vagina's are overrated!

So I'm now looking to spend the rest of my days with a tgirl, not that I've had any luck here in the UK, most transgender women here made the change late in life, many after fathering a family, and as a result they look like a gorilla in a frock, not for me thanks. Here in the UK they health authorities won't even consider looking at transgender issues until a person is 18, often too late, as testosterone has done its damage.

For me, the perfect girl is very feminine, but has that extra package, and is happy to live with it, as am I, unfortunately the only area in the world to accept the third sex is SE Asia, elsewhere you have to be one gender or the other.

Good luck to all you confused gender types, I hope you finally settle on what is best for you, and I hope one day that western society is able to understand and accept those of you caught in between.

Well, that WAS me. I look a lot different now.

You both look great. It's hard to see one's own good looks when they're stuck in the wrong body. The first time I saw myself in the mirror as a woman, it was mind-blowing. I saw myself in the mirror. Before, it was like looking at someone else. Now I don't see a stranger in the mirror. It's great.

Ulfar your drawings are great! I'm drawn tot he creatures at the bottom a lot. I was looking for art like that when I was designing a game that I eventually gave up on. Everyone wanted too much money for their works (like 50 bucks for a silly avatar) It's little pixel works like that that I can't do very well.

I think it's funny that you would like to look like I did. I'd kill to look like either of you.

sorry to bring up bdsm again, but I just have to comment on the bondage part. I know a lot about rope bondage. If you ever need pointers..... lol
anyway

I'm at my father's house right now, so i should probably go back to socializing.

Talk to you soon.

--Cadence

Pete, I don't know if you were trying to be or not, but your post was highly offensive to me. I'm not mad or anything, but you should screen the things you say a little more. And get the whole story before you recap- please.