HEYA!!!

Cadence, was it hard to loose muscles? I mean, how long it took you? You look totally different now, you want to have longer hair?

Here all formes of this creature:



And the next I'm working on:



I make them for free ^^'. Just for pleasure .

Cadence what game you were planning to create? Can you tell me more about it?

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black night dark sky
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There was never any intention to be offensive, I asked honest questions in a desire to understand more about the third sex, a situation I'm not in and am unable to comprehend. I am trying to get the whole story, hence my questions, I've learned a lot through chatting to Tgirls of various lines of thought on how far they want to go in their transition, and I'm still learning, but I can only learn more by asking questions.

All I can say is you look totally different now, and I hope that you are happy with the changes.

Pete

HEEEYYYAAA back from my cottage.... It was pretty damn boring... Rained a lot T__T ate cause I was bored, was bored cause all I did was eat XD Vicious never ending cycle *pokes growing belly*

And OHHHHHH *sings happily* I went on a little shopping spree with my, now OFFICIAL , girlfriend. Bought two pairs of boxers, skinny, but baggy jeans, a guys base-ball tee as well... Not much, but the other 40 are buying me a boob binder It was awkward cause it was 10000000 degrees inside american eagle and I was holding a pair of boxers, looking VERY womanly, fanning myself with them and asking them to ring them up at cash XD

Needless to say, I got looked at funny.. I think it was because I was fanning myself with them though XD

DAMN Cadence, you look so different How did you loose all that muscle weight? Great job PS, love the goggles

And yes ma'am pointers would be awesome! Especially on how to 'introduce' BDSM to someone whos very shy and hesitant towards it... <____<

Ulfar, I don't get how you get into such cool things like this... Becoming a knight, doing monsters for websites :O... You must have the hook-ups in poland I really like the purple one, what was it's name again?

HELLLLLOOOOOOOOOO PETE X..... Damn yea...... I wasnt that insulted but you should yanno.... read what you write before you send it.... Cause, it's like Cadence said... For me at least, half, or more than half the days I wake up and stare in the mirror.... It IS like I'm staring at a stranger, and I could look amazing that day all dolled up... but I would still feel hollow and sad inside. It's not that I'm unhappy with how I look.. It's just internally the image in the mirror just doesn't match up.

ANYWAYS...... Here is me after hormones (or maybe after a binder and packer):



*laughs* no not really... that's just my anime man clone, Otani from Lovely Complex... And plus, I already have the hair He's the same attitude, same eye colour and original hair colour XD and hes small Nice metro fashion sense 2.

OHHHHHHHHH!!!! and both of you, from experience ( if you have any) RECOMMENDED SEX TOYS.... well cause.... To have sex that will get my gf to climax (which she so desperately wants to have).... I need some T_T penetration ones... Lawl, at 15.... *shakes head*

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Pete, you didn't ask any questions. You came in, told us we were confused, made it clear that -you- weren't confused, called us what we don't want to be called, and then basically said it was hopeless for any transgender over 18 and we're doomed to never look the way we want. Now I know you didn't mean to be offensive, but it was.

And on a side note, ever call me masculine, or a tgirl, to my face and ill poke you in the eye. I -am- a girl, plain and simple. My body may have been male at one point in time, but my mind and heart was always a girl's. I've spent a lot of time and effort and money erasing what masculinity I've had. Calling me a tgirl just reminds me that I -was- in a man's body at one point. It's bad enough I have a childhood's worth of photos that I can never get rid of. I don't want to be anything but a girl, nothing inbetween, not a chick with a dick, not some bizarre sex object like transgenders seem to be to so many people, just a girl. People I meet outside of here never know my masculine past, any history they know of me has been altered. To them, I've been a girl my whole life. And that illusion is going to stay that way, y'here? No tgirl business.

As far as my muscles go, it's still a tough journey. Genetically, my family is muscular to begin with. So I'm battling genetics as well. I still have some fairly impressive biceps and forearms. Nothing incredible, but they still stand out. I just changed my diet a lot, that's about it. It's amazing what you can accomplish with just what you put in your mouth ( )

Lol always so many questions to answer.

Oh, yes, I want longer hair again. I used to have hair to my ass a long time ago lol.

that's me in a Halloween costume when I was your age, seme. My hair wasn't as long as it was when it finally got cut but, still a good idea. (I'm on the right btw )

Sex toys is a big world. I could write an entire book on them, but I wont do it here. It's really a personal matter. If it's intended for a couple, then the couple needs to shop for it together.

Just as a disclaimer, I'm not condoling sexual activity to anyone. If you choose to have sex, you do it at your own risk. No sex is always an acceptable lifestyle and there is no reason at any time that you should feel pressured into having sex- EVER.

That being said, if looking for a sex toy together, give it some good thought. They vary in size GREATLY. And since you are still a virgin, and if your girlfriend (congratz btw) is one too, you may just want to experiment with your hands, knees, and if you're ready, mouths first (remember, protection. There's usually a resouce center SOMEWHERE around where you live that can offer condoms, rings, and dental dams) Then, when feeling comfortable with sex in general, start looking at toys. Don't be afraid to ask the person at the counter about a certain toy. A lot of them have special purposes that you may not be interested in, or that might be something you never thought of. If you are allergic to anything, make a note of it. Toys are made of all kinds of materials.

I would recommend, as a starter, getting a small toy you control with your hand. Don't jump right to the super strap-on complete with veins and pulsating action. Believe it or not, its hard to control a penis' movement with just your hips- even if you grew up with one. Let her get used to the feeling of a foreign object being involved. Once you both are used to it, then think about graduating to a strap-on.

You don't have to take my suggestions, they're merely a recommendation and ultimately it's up to your own personal comfort.

I would also recommend getting used to sex with eachother before even bringing up BDSM. There are a good bit of people out there who like Bondage, but there aren't nearly as many who like sado-masochism. But once you are comfortable together and you've built up a bit of trust in each other, then simply ask. Bring it up beforehand about experimenting with light rope bondage. Or maybe even just ask if she'd want her hands bound for a few minutes while you -play- Make sure she knows it's still about her. That even though she's tied up, it's still about both of yours pleasure.

Light bondage is a great way to build suspense and initiate a stronger amount of intimacy during sex. Not only does it build trust, but when your partner is tied up, it's a great way to explore her body with light touches, kisses, little nips and traces of the tongue. If she's blindfolded, then she doesn't know what's going to happen next, which makes her skin all the more sensitive.

Soft ropes can feel very very good against the skin as well. If you do it right, it can be very comfortable.

Otherwise, it can also be used in the heat of passion to just make it even more intense. Ripping off a belt and lassoing her wrists together with it and holding them above her head while you make out is an awesome way to exert dominance during passion. If the girl is into tougher guys/girls, you create that image instantly if you can get her tied up like that unexpectedly.

More tips after I've slept. My son is whining at me. I'll also tell you about my game Ulfar.

BTW, I have a DA as well.

My current one is SuperCadence http://supercadence.deviantart.com

but when I was a guy, it was razboinic http://razboinic.deviantart.com

g'night!

Cadence, you look so nice on this pic @.@.

Well, at least, I finished my exams. With quite good grades (in Poland we have different grades than these in USA): I have many 5 and two 4 (5 is the highest grade). So I'm pretty happy.

Unfortunately, I said today to my dad that I'm not a girl and he respond that I have something wrong with my mind, that I'm insane... That made me feel so down...

Anyways, I want present to you some songs that the best describes me and my mood... I love them so much.

-Blind Guardian, Mordred's song
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4q0wX-qxfoE

-Blind Guardian, Another stranger me
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rj-QLcJndg8

-Blind Guardian, Bard's song
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u_tORtmKIjE

-Tiamat, Church of Tiamat
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4Q4Lo33s-U0

-Tiamat, The wings of heaven (the most sensual song I've ever heard) Please, leasten it...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uaJ1PJYzzus

-Devil May Cry 3 OST, Devils never cry (in this one, these voices... they are just like my personality... Please, respect this song, this is my very personal melody)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X-KlzfV8_DI

These are songs which make me cry, which makes my emotions grow and getting stronger.

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Praise to my father
blessed by the water
black night dark sky
the Devil's cry

Ulfar, I'm listening to the Devil May Cry song as I type.... I love it It's my type of music, very good choice for your personal melody Isn't that from a video game or something? It sound very familiar... And good job on your exams! Much better than I did

And gosh, that's not the best response... But I guess not many people are used to gender confusion/ third gender, or just don't take it seriously. Gays and lesbians are now widely accepted, but gender issues are a different thing all together and society just doesn't seem to be able to fully accept it yet. Hmmm..... Well we at tgpoint know you're not insane, or else.... i guess we all are insane and this is just one giant insane forum XD

Give your dad some time... he may just be a little overwhelmed, or doesn't know how to handle it? I mean it's not everyday your daughter comes up to you and tells you she's not your 'daughter', but something different.

I'm too much of a wuss to come out to my parents T_T. I mean... my dad is CONVINCED im a lesbian... but in that annoying creepy male fantasy way.... And my mom won't understand even if i tell her... SOOOO I'm keeping my mouth shut for a long time. It's kinda annoying cause me and my gf cant act all couple-ish around our parents, who have know each friend for YEARS, and we have to sneak around all the time.

So kudos to you for having the courage to say something to your dad

And Cadence, Ulfar is right... You own long hair @___@!!! I know long hair can be a bitch to take care of sometimes, but you should grow it out ^^ you look pretty! ( not that you dont without it )

Aww man, genetics.... God I hate them... *pokes at freckles and annoying stomach* I inherited a horrible metabolism, so regardless of how good I eat it's almost impossible to lose weight, but SOO easy to gain.

But having something that works against the image im trying to create, would be a TOTAL pain in the ass. I feel sorry for you

I'm gifted with big hand, feet, unfeminine but at the same time feminine face... Broad shoulders, but hips, big eyes, but a slouch... I'm all over the place, but it helps to flip between genders

And thank you for the tips D: I tried the whole 'tough girl' image *chuckles* it worked well.... I only got as far as pushing her down on a pool table and pinning her hands up over her head.... BBUUTTT its a start XD

And apparently, according to last nights sleep-over... I'm TECHNICALLY, scientific text book standards... not a virgin XD I think it may have been my years of gymnastics, or the holy shit sized tampons *goes into too much information* but yyeeeaa..... I am slightly creeped out with it, it's real disappointing to be honest XD

Also, what DOES count as sex to lesbians, or with two girls?

And BTW, so I don't seem like a whore, or just someone who rushes into sex without second thought.... even though we've been only officially dating for like... just under a week.. I've known her since I was 4, been best friends for 5 years, flirted for 8 months prior, un-officially dated for a month..... Sooooo..... we kinda went fast and skipped a few stages when we went official..

And sex toys.... thank you for the advice, especially about allergies.. she's allergic to like everything.. I never would have thought of that!!! :O D: .... though.. I do have a question.. being 15 and all, will we be allowed to enter a sex store and BUY one? I'm like a complete beginner with this stuff... Don't you have to be like 18 or w.e to get into those types of stores? >___<

and as for BDSM.... She will never go for S&M... though I'm finding I'm a bit of a masochist myself, not hardcore.. but, I do like it.... the thing is though, she hates to cause me ANY pain and almost cried, and felt VERY VERY bad when she caused me pain accidentally last night so that thought went down the drain.... But as for bondage.... hopefully later on in the relationship I can get some belts and soft ropes going *crosses fingers*

But I'm also 15.... so I'm in no BIG rush I'm just very quick to get bored, and very quick to jump in and try something new. I like doing things I've never done before, and experimenting.

:O DA!!!! *runs to DA and checks it out*

Jack.

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Well, I didn't exactly tell him how I feel. And maybe that's my mistake. Coz I always only say that I'm not a girl when he's saying smth about being girlish. That's all. I'm a stinky coward and I'm afraid of explaining him or my mom how do I feel, so they don't know.

Seme, we are similar, I'm acting strong (and agressive >.<) and 'in bed' I like pain XD. But, I'm already 20 and I feel kind of .. disgusting, when I think about sex with male, I mean penetration exactly. Just, I feel I could do it if I had this thing between my legs, but not in this female body. I felt horrible after some things I did with my bf (anal or oral sex), we were trying a few times but every time I felt same. I mean, I feel lust, desire... but I don't feel well after that. I feel only hatred to this female body.

Seme, Devil May Cry is a game. There are 4 parts exactly. And Dante is embodiment of my spirit. ^^'

That's all for now... After exams I think only about relaxation and I play Secred II (x360) with my bf or Battlefield Heroes (http://www.battlefieldheroes.com). Soon I'm planning to do some drawings, finish older ones and maybe write something.

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Praise to my father
blessed by the water
black night dark sky
the Devil's cry

It's hard with family to accept a change like that. So many people don't even realize it exists. Congratulations on your grades, but don't let your dad ruin it. I've been called insane. My dad told me before that it was all in my head. We even got into a fight one time where he threw me into the hallway and then to the ground, ripping off my girl clothes.

He's made a lot of strides since then. He's trying..but it took a long time. A very long time. I love devil may cry. I've been trying to get through 4 on my PS3. Hard boss %_%

Anyway. Ulfar, you're not insane. Your eyes are just open whie everyone else's are closed.

Sex is..well..it's hard to define sex anymore. Here- seek out a movie called Better than Chocolate and If These Walls Could Talk 2. Both Great movies. Better Than Chocolate even has a Transgender in it. It wont really teach you THAT much about sex, but really gay sex is a lot different. It's a very intimate moment. And really, so long as your bodies are together with your spirits and you've reached this psychological bind that can only be achieved through these moments, you might as well call it sex

Your lack of a hymen is probably due to the gymnastics. It happens a LOT with that and horeseback riding. It's not that big of a deal. I don't know the age in canada for sex toys. It IS 18 here, though. But, don't worry too much about toys.. you can probably get someone to get one for you, but they aren't necessary. Even as a guy, I've had sex and completely ignored my...dangly parts. The tongue does it all hah.

Don't worry if she doesn't like all the sexual stuff hun, I don't want to be a party pooper, but chances are against you that this will work. As you grow up, tastes change a LOT and so do relationships. You may not be into BDSM and she may. But I think you'll find a desire to experiment with others eventually. Being 15..yeah. Just enjoy it. That is a good start on the pool table btw.

My recommendation? Go a whole week of teasing her. Get her hot with kisses when you can. Touch her close to sensative spots. Get her in the mood at least once a day, but then back off suddenly as if nothing happened. Then, you'll be able to pretty much do what you want with her by the time 5 days are up. Teasing is a VERY powerful weapon.

Y'know what..start reading the articles available for free at menshealth.com

Once you guys have finally broken the sexual barrier, I'll teach you a few simple knots and things to get your bondage life going.

My brain is so empty right now. But y'know what, I'm thinking about all of this and I think even from us talking all three of us have made a lot of psychological progress, even though it doesn't seem that way. Ulfar, you haaven't mentioned being so pissed off nearly as much in the beginning. You've admitted to being jealous of male physicality. You've even come out to your father about your problem, even though we still haven't reached the verdict on what it is. I wish I could do more, but gosh, gender is such a big word lately. But I'll still be as best a friend as I can.

Jack, it seems like you've made a lot of progress too, wow. Setting up all those plans with your therapist. Congratulations. I mean, idunno how you guys are outside of here, but I like to think you both are doing great. I want you to know I think about both of you a lot >.< Lol, I don't have a lot of friends, such a shame we're all so far apart. Itd be nice for all of us to go for coffee. Course, I don't know about how old you are Ulfar, but I'm sure parents would frown at you guys hanging out with someone 10 years older . Especially talking about such matters.

Sometimes I'll type something out and end up erasing it because my subconscious tells me it'd be bad to say that to a minor lol. Its weird enough telling you how to have sex.

If I ever get that Transition House up and running in Canada, I'd gladly make room for either of you (sorry Ulfar, Poland is too far for me to travel, but if you can make it..I'll free up a room for you) that is to say if I can. Oh dreams..sorry I'm in lala sleep deprivation land. I should crash before i say something stupid..if im not too late >< g'night folks.

Back from the hellish dentist... Man... I never actually hated the dentists... until now. It hurt so much D:

It's raining non-stop here *sighs* we've had like a zillion thunderstorms.. It's like springs come late and is dumping all the storms we here in toronto, never got in the spring.

Let's start with *covers eyes and points to one* ULFAR!!!

Dear god.... We do sound the same when it comes to sex XD... I'm also just disgusted when we do things cause its like... Ummm..... please don't touch me there.. I don't even like it.. Why would I want you touching something i hate and despise... It's like... God, I also starting crying a few nights ago because I actually didn't have a dick..

It was just SO frustrating, because we were doing things I DID NOT want to do as two girls. I didn't feel like a girl, she treats me as a guy, and I felt the desire to just run to the first hospital I saw and going GET ME ON HORMONES NOW!!!!

Like, at the moment... Like fashion wise.. I'm going through a little feminine phase.. cause it's summer and I like wearing my short shorts and cute tops that show off tanned boobs. But in the same breath... I can still feel that nagging disgusted feeling within me going "..... why are you in GIRLS clothes? You are cross dressing!!!"

And I was the same.. not feeling well... It felt nice.. but after once I got up.. I started to have a bit of the beginnings of a panic attack (i have anxiety issues). I got all shaky, my breathing was racing and I was starting to hyperventilate... My stomach felt queasy and off, and I was dizzy... Because I had been touched as a girl, and it felt wrong to my body.

The only good thing is that, if I was to transition to a boy... I'd be gay, so being with men and getting penetrated.. though un-comfortable in a woman's body... would still be okay. I mean, I fit in much better with my 3 gay guys friends than my straight girl friends, even though they have the same tastes in stuff... I just feel like when I'm hanging with girls and acting all boyish that they think I'm some giant dominating lesbian... and when I'm with the boys, I feel like I'm actually a boy.. and when we talk about guys... It's comfortable to speak to them not as a girl and swooning and sighing and going " ooohhhhh hes so cute, I'd want him to take me out on a romantic date".. I can be like (depending on the guy we are talking about) "man.. I wish I could take him out.... Wouldn't mind tapping that."

And yes... Ulfar, maybe explaining to your father how you feel might help him understand what you are going through... And you're not a coward, not at all! Man... even saying that much.. Makes you stronger than a lot of people, me included. And there's not rush to explain to them at THIS MOMENT, RIGHT NOW, THIS SECOND..... Just tell them when you feel ready, and when It's the right time. ^^

And :O man.. this is going to sound horrible.. but I found out about the game from a guy on guy site *laughs*..... oh man... I have no life... I'm going to have to go out and rent that game now *searches up who Dante is* And when you're done your writings.. I'd love to hear one!!

AND NOOOWWWWW for Cadence

:O Your father did that?.... wow >_< I'm glad he's not that bad anymore then.. cause that would be a very bad thing to have to experience, especially if it continued day in and day out.

And i looked up the movies on IMDb and I'll have to go and find them on the internet!! And yea... I'll have to go and ask my friend Julia, she's the 'promiscuous' one of our group, into drugs, lots of partners and casual sex and gosh... all that fun stuff She's got friends who wouldn't mind going into a sex store for friends of julias

It kind of sucks to know what we have won't last forever... Because, this will sound lame.. but I don't 'believe' in high school sweethearts... i mean how do you KNOW that that one person is THE ONE, if they are the only person you have dated, or at least one of the few... i want to know that after searching, I've found someone who truly is amazing, and that I don't need to wonder "what if" i had kept looking?

So we almost didn't go out because we didn't want to start something that was bound to end. It would just be a blow on our friend relationship... But *sigh* I dunno...... I live in the moment a lot and I said.. WHY NOT? I mean, if we never went out would we still be thinking WHAT IF?

It's just kinda scary to think of breaking up with her... ( I know when the time comes it will almost certainly be me doing the breaking up... I always seem to in every relationship I've had.) Because she's had a crush on me for like a year, and feelings she only realized now that she had since grade 8...... And she just such an amazing person that it's horrible to think of having to, maybe years down the road... but eventually breaking her heart. It would be nice to have some input about relationships as a teen... Anything would help..

Horror stories of it.... Good stories... Stories about staying friends or god.. anything

And as for the teasing... Sounds good... I just know when I back off she's gonna attack me, she's bigger than me and could pin me down if she wanted to XD ( yea *laughs* I'm top but both shorter and skinnier than her )

*brings up mens health* IM ON IT MA'AM!!!

And I am doing great, this site has been a god send... i was VERY confused before i found this site, and this forum and you two... I'm very glad I did. And I think about you 2 a lot as well ^^ I always tell my girlfriend about my net pals, as I have kindly dubbed you two... " The Polish Knight" and " Cosmopolitan Girl" ... Cadence, it's just cause you are so knowledgeable, and smart.. especially about sex... just like the Cosmopolitan magazines And Ulfar.. your name is self explanatory

And Coffee sounds nice, but my parents would be like T_________T NO.WAY.IN.HELL. (they are internet safety freaks ) <_< they don't have to know though

Lawl, and honestly... I'm the pervert of my group.... I've probably seen more porn, read more, watched more, AND have more fetishes and creepy likes than my parents could even BEGIN to imagine. So seriously... Not much you could say could phase me Unless you said something horrible like torturing cats for the internet D: but i HOPE you don't do that DX

<_< ........................ >_> *hides from terror*

It's okay... It's better to be getting sex knowledge from someone who's all about safety and knows a good deal about what they are talking about.. then asking my friends and getting " OMG CONDOMS ARE SOOOOO YESTERDAY... pregnancy is IN!!" ...... they aren't like that.. but you know what I mean.. If I'm gonna hear it.. its better to have it from someone good, than bad. But, keep erasing if you don't feel comfortable

And Ulfar... bring you and your boyfriend down here to the land of free health care, hockey, maple syrup and roaming moose!!! Then we can go get coffee XD

HOLY CRAP.. that was one hell of a post... I was gonna include my graphite picture, the one I was freaking out about, in this post... Cause I went to the school and got it today.. BUT no room.. another time

Jack.

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I want to say many things, but it's very late and I'm too sleepy (it's 23:33 here). I'll write more tomorrow. Now, I present you almost full stadies of Verfrost wolf



Fuck.. it's jpg file.. >.< What a horrible quality! :<

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Praise to my father
blessed by the water
black night dark sky
the Devil's cry