HEYA!!!

Yeah, Ulfar. Me 'n' Jack, we got your back. ^_^ sorry..had to rhyme.

Ok, dunno how much I can cover tonight, I've got homework coming out of my ears! AAAH! Y'know, everyone is a pleaser, top or bottom. In fact, a top's job involves my pleasing than a bottom's. When dominating someone, you're not necessarily getting what 'you want' out of it. You're doing things to please your partner, teasing them, toying with them. In the long run, they get the enjoyment out of it. It's hard to understand the medium, but basically, so many people are so worried about pleasing the other person that they don't. Just do what you want and enjoy it, and your partner will enjoy it so much more. So: worry less about pleasing them, and just do it. See what I mean?

Uhm, Jack, oral sex works great but its not always the key to orgasm. For the people that find it hard to cum, in a lot of cases they just need more passion, you gotta have them relax, get their heart thumping, make them comfortable. If she really is comfortable with you, if you get her to that stage, then strong emotions and passionate lovemaking will be a good way to get her up there.

If she's new to sex as well, she may not be able to come for a while. Simply having your first time will make a person tense enough not to cum. There's so many things on her mind, am I doing it right? should I be doing this? what's gonna happen? why this what that..there's a million things going on in her head..how can she free enough space for the sparks?

If she isn't a virgin, then it could still be a lot of things on her mind that's keeping her from relaxing enough. That's your biggest job, getting her mentally ready.

Yes, from what I understand, girls can get blueballs too. Although the pain comes from different parts and isn't as common.

If you really want to try oral sex, just remember that it's not necessarily all about the crotch. There's a lot of exploring and kissing and whatnot. It'll take a lot of experimenting and don't expect to be perfect at it.

• Pay attention to her reactions.
• Don't do the same thing too often.
• Involve your fingers, what your tongue isn't doing, your fingers should be.
• You can even involve your lips.
• Do not blow air inside of her! Lol, bad juju!
• The inner most part of her thighs will be very sensitive to kisses, but be careful, they can also be ticklish.
• Be slow for most of it, don't just, go all wild and motorboat your lips all over her labia, lol..no..bad.

There's probably a million things I can say, but really, you gotta work it out between the two of you. Just remember to explore her whole body. I hate to quote a song but, treat it like it's a wonderland. Kiss certain spots and sneak your tongue out to wet the area, then allow a little bit of your warm breath to blow across the wet spot.

Yeeah, before I turn myself on, I'd better stop. I'vev got homework to do anyway. I'll talk more when I get the chance.

Love you guys!

btw..if you want a ...picture of the progress of my body..since you all seem to say i look fantastic, i can show you, but i can't upload it..mah boobies are showin. Lol, don't want to show people who don't want to see.

You have homework? 0_0

In college? Uni? Night school?

You poor woman XD I'm soooo glad I'm on my break, no homework for mmmeeeee ~ What is the homework on? I've got nurses, sales engineers, chemists, business professors, vice president of a mining corporation and a bunch of other people im related to that are smart.... so if it's got anything to do with science, business or math.... i can ask them questions if you have any to help you out. ( I ask lots of strange questions anyways )

As you can see my family is geared towards that. My moms a nurse, dads a sales engineer manager thing for a big company and my sis wants to become a paramedic...... And I'm like <_< "i want to be an english teacher?" I'm the only artsy person in my entire family, a lefty and dress strangely to them. So my sister always tells me in adopted

Yea on that note, I got a big talk today from my mother about how I dress. She told me (and i quote) " Jessica.... Never leave the house like you did yesterday! You looked like a boy!! Baggy jeans, baggy top, almost no make-up... Take pride in how you look! You are not a boy!" The list goes on... and i OWNED her through-out the discussion. Saying " why does it matter if I dress in a boy-ish manner... I DO take pride in how I look.... i make sure I look good when I leave." Its just not HER way of looking good. I make sure I look good as a GUY, not a girl, but she doesn't know that part.

Funny enough, that day i left the house like that... i was headed off to the gay village for a date with my girlfriend (which ended up being so much fun... there was this one cheese shop there and they had cheese made from Ewe's milk.... WTF?! XD). And we finally got to hold hands, and I fit in looking like I did... And people smiled at us when we walked down the street. We made friends with this one gay guy. It was so much fun. I want to live there!!!! D:

And thank you sooo much for the advice... God, at least now I have SOME idea of what to do. Before i would have done everything you said not to (except the blowing part XD). We decided as a couple that we weren't ready to take that next step just yet... Shes mentally too stressed, and we both arent ready to go that far. We are gonna have fun doing what we do now. But at least now, with your advice.. When we decide to... i won't look like an idiot!!!

And omg, we got into a sex store!!! The chick helped us buy a friggin sex toy XD But OMG, in the male section they had a dildo that was thicker than my hands could fit around. IS THAT HUMANLY POSSIBLE TO USE?!?!

If you (i dunno) wanna know what we ended up getting I'll say.. But until then... Just know, we almost chickened out.. But we went and got one *dances*

And :O sure picture would be cool! How exactly has the estrogen effected your body thus far? And in both FTM and MTF, are there MULTIPLE drugs that are used? or just testosterone and estrogen?

I'm a curious person. (oh and nice rhyme )

JACK.

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Lol, Jack, congratulations. Your mom is just crazy. Even if you wanted to be a girl, makeup does not make the woman.

Actually my class is on algorithms. I have school all year round, lol. I get 2 weeks break in the summer, that's about it. It's ok, it's not hard, just a lot of work.

Yes it's possible to use, i seen it..its not pretty but..i seen it.

and, what's your e-mail? ill send it to you..or if you have aim or somethin..
and, there's a variety of stuff ytou can take, it depends on the dr. The mainstream though is estrodial and spironolactone. lol gotta run! ><

Ewww, school all year 'round. What are you studying to become?

Uhhhh.... My 'normal' account (that ive stopped using) is kittykutie1104@hotmail.com

the one i use now is jackjack1232008@hotmail.com

send it to either

:O guess what?

Because its the internet and I CAN. I'm thinking of starting a v-log Never done one before.. its just for the hell of it. Mostly about gender issues, and talking about any progress I'm making. Like the FTM and MTF vids.... But with no hormones... yet <_<

I think I want to do maybe a few "segments" in it... Something more than staring at a camera and droning on. Any ideas? 0.0

And D: Ulllffaaarrrr........ Syyynnntttthhhhh......

I think they have died off XD I know Ulfars away but ULFAR!!! Don't be shy, give us a little update so we know you're okay D:

.... And I'm starting to look more and more awkward in girls clothes T___T... but I'm going to try and dress up DISGUSTINGLY girly.. like so girly it melts your eyes from your sockets.... And scare the crap outta my friends and girlfriend XD I think they would cry, cause even when I didn't have such pressing gender issues... I never really dressed too girly.

This should be fun......

Jack.

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I'm still here Jack, I promise ^.^

Working 7 days a week is taking it out of me, and I'm studying full-time on top of that, so I sleep WHENEVER I get the opportunity.

If you guys want to chat real-time, feel free to add me on Yahoo Messenger. I believe I put my SN in my profile somewhere.

Anyway, on topic. I've never done a vlog before... actually, never stood in front of a video camera, at all! I blog a lot, but it's never straightforward dialogue. Haha, I think if I started vlogging, it'd be like a virtual poetry reading!

I occasionally shock my mates with my clothing choices, as you've decided to do Jack. Even as close as 2 years ago, I always ALWAYS wore baggy jeans, and massive t-shirts. It wasn't so much because I liked the baggy look... more that I'm so small anyway, that it's hard to find clothes that fit properly. My belt sits at the smallest setting, and yet it still falls off.
I've managed to find a few shirts that FIT! It's incredible, and I love it. And I've gone out and gotten a few pairs of jeans from the "girls section" of stores. Just because they actually fit.
Well... they fit my legs and waist just fine. I've got to sort of... wedge my penis down the side of one leg though. Which makes me look like I'm well-endowed most of the time, and gets me quite a few stares when I'm out and about :s

ALSO!
Good news, I think! Little Synth has been chatting with a girl for a few days now. It's quite strange though... I'm usually the one instigating the courting procedures, and yet... now, I'm not? I'm so far out of my comfort zone it's not funny, but it seems to be working out.
Anyway, I'll keep you guys posted

Synth,
Out.

Holy crap. Suddenly I'm happy I'm only 15.. Id hate to work and study all the time.
>___< And what are YOU studying for? :3

And god Synth... you're JUST like my friend jayan. He is like 5'5 and weights SEVENTY pounds 0_0. he's like a walking skeleton. He eats like a little piggy but has a disgustingly fast metabolism. So he usually wears clothes are like waayy too big for him because he weighs so little. I should send him to the girls section of the stores, while I visit the boy part XD

And :O GO SYNTH!!! I hope things work out with you and this girl.. Keep us posted!!

Now I must gooo got a wedding to attend T_T

*cries as Jack pulls on a dress*

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...... It has been a very emotional day, and I've cried myself dry.

My parents now know.

Jack.

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Well, you tell them that if they need any resources, I'll be glad to help. Or if they just need someone to yell at! Haha you can give them my e-mail! Good Luck Jack, I'll be here for you!

Jack, everything going ok? I mean it when I say that if your parents need someone to speak to it, they can contact me. Or have them talk to your therapist. I hope everything is going ok
--Cadence

Yea.... It's all okay...

They are having difficulty wrapping their heads around it... but I mean, that's normal.

They are looking into getting a gender councilor for me, so that's good.

:):)

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