Is suicide the best way?

I understand some societies are less accepting than others, and yes my Polish friends wouldn't be the most understanding.

Some societies look into what's in a person's heart, not just what's between their legs. There is a group of villages in South America (need to go do some more research now ) that have a number of children spontaneously change gender at puberty, and they're very accepting of chinging sexuality in people. I guess it comes down to what you've exposed to.

Lots of people all round the world don't see past their garden, but the world is also full of people who have open minds and wide horizons. The sheer weight of ignorance can be hard to bear sometimes, and the unwillingness to change, or even question can drive you to distraction, but the trick is to have a gentle acceptance of people like that, accept them as they are, then get on with your own fascinating, incredible life.

One of the things I most like about growing older has been seeing how I can simply accept things, and move on. I'd much rather use my time doing the things I want, and thinking about things that interest me, instead of banging my head against the wall of ignorance. I simply don't worry about what people think any more, and the funny thing is, people around me have been much more accepting of me! Shakespeare once wrote "To one's own self be true." good advice, to which you could add, "and @#$% what the rest of you think!"

If you're Polish, then you have one of the most valued things in the world: An EU identity...there are literally thousands of other cities to go live in, in over a dozen countries. In a new environment, you get to decide what people know about you, and if you choose the right place, you can have a much more accepting environment around you. The other thing too is that no one knows your past, they just have to accept you as you are.

Anyway, take care, and glad to hear back from you! Looking forward to your next reply.

Tony

I don't know what to do. Again. It's not getting better. It's so hard all the time! The feeling that I'm not one person, but two. Two personalities because of no human's understanding. I feel I can't live in that way. It's painful. Why do they don't understand that I'm not male, nor female?

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@Ulfar: Suicide is -NEVER- the best way. It is the absolute worst way to handle -any- issue.

You are going through an -extremely- difficult life lesson right now. If you make it through this, it will show you as well as the rest of the world, how strong you truly are.

Plus, the knowledge you will gain from these trials will serve you well for the rest of your life.

Believe it or not, many of us have been where you are. I have wished that my life would end for many years.

The pain has made me -very- strong. I found strength that I never thought I had.

Your life is a precious gift. Don't throw it away.

:TGirl51.

hey.... i havent read all the other posts... but you sound like you may be bi-gender... Look it up on wikipedia...

I am bi-gender as well, and it's when depending on the context or how you are feelings, you flip-flop between genders, and may not even be a certain one internally....

I dunno.. Hope that helps a bit...

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Tgirl51, I don't know what future awaits me, but it's surely not colorful. I'm studying archeology and I'm still hearing that I may not dig, because it's 'so hard work'. And it realy hurts me very deeply. I'm training, I'm trying to get stronger body. I don't want to be treat like a girl.

And here's what Semetastic said... That's true. AAll you've said. How do You handle it?

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Because they are insular, ignorant and subscribe lemming-like to whatever society tells them is 'normal', irrespective of facts and logic (*see: religion). They are followers as distinct from leaders. They are sheeple.


You ignore those who do not accept and respect you and go about living your life. Use their ignorance and prejudice as filter to find those who are a positive influence in your life, then surround yourself with them. Also use their negativity as impetus to drive you. The best revenge is to live well.

If you let others' shortcomings bring you down, you descend to the level they want you to be at -- a level where you're sadder than they themselves are. If this happens, they win. Don't let them win!

Ulfar u r cr4azy

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i used to have that suicidal thought on and off even till today.. hmmm.. was prescribed for anti depressant pills for 4 months then i stop.. then i continue with gingko biloba, somehow this herbs does helped me to hv healthy mental state..

PS.. Tony, I missed you!! no plan to visit Malaysia again? wow now is August 2009, his last post was August 2008!! let see if he could sense my energy!!

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bad experienced I take it as a good lesson,
good times I saved it as good memories..

love, peace and happiness..

Suicide is lazy. Sure, it solves your problems, but then what? You're done.

There's a theory that, when someone jumps to his death, he realizes two-thirds of the way down what he could have done to solve all his problems. What if you decide to end it all and you realize when it's too late that you fucked up big?

When I feel overwhelmed, I just imagine what the world will be like, hundreds of years from now, and how insignificant my stupid problems will be by then.

Everyone has their issues which effect how they think. Some people "appear" to cope very well and then there are those everyday mortals like you and me who often ask ourselves drastic questions seeking a best way forward.

I think how we think equals the results we see in our life. Of course it is not easy to start with, but over time we can control our thoughts. I was very negative in the past, would dwell on the worst points and expect the worst. Eventually my mind began to work on a positive direction.

Everyday that I meet other humans there is always a good chance I meet someone who seem to have a mission to abuse someone or spoil their day at the very least. It is not personal... these dysfunctional people are out there all the time. We think we got problems! How about them... imagine being in their shoes with nothing to look forward to other than being a *hit face is the life of others!

Yes we all have the choice to end our life. We also have the choice to decide to make something of our life no matter what negative issues come our way. Friendship and love are the most valuable treasures in my life... I decided what was most important and nothing can change this. Little steps in the right direction are the way to. Some days that little step may just be to notice the birds singing in the morning. Many small things but things that are positive.

We can choose to leave something to worry about until a later date... it is true! Many things do not need our action or decision at that very moment, day or even week. Possibly the issue will seem less dramatic when we go back to it. If it still seems so bad why not reschedule our worry session!

Also if we keep busy it is harder to let our mind keep returning to worrying thoughts. If we can find someone to care for... someone who needs help it also helps us ourselves.

Just my thoughts!
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